herm... i havent finish editing my new layout yet coz i being stalled by other things... well maybe this layout would do for a while... i'll add up some other things later on...

well today i receive a whole lot of news... first about my dear fren who went on an operation last tuesday and today she got out from the ward... i'm not really clear about her problem but it's something that have to do with her digestive system of some kind... it's like a follow up to her appendix surgery 3 years ago... something went wrong during that time... well today i got the whole story about what's happening to her lately... it's something that saddened me... not going to mention it here though coz it's confidential and private....

and then i also got the news about my friends here in mmu... well all i'm going to say is that i'm surprised with the news... i've already heard the explaination bout it all... well not everything actually... and i hope that everything will turned out fine and dont be so depressed with this.. things come and things go... learn to let it go... i just dont know how and what will happen in the future but i bet that time will heal everything... *am i a counselor wannabe..?? nahhh!! *

so that's it all... i'm having a storm again in this small mind of mine and i resorted to this blog... but heck it's not going to turn off... perhaps there's another way... sleep!!!! zzzZZZzzZzZZZZZzZzZzzz

yeah... this is my new layout... still working on it though.. got to sleep now... zzzzzz

so it's christmas heh..??? where the hell is that fucking santa..?? i'm wishing for love but he just cant give it to me... damn you old bastard... heheheh... dont believe in santa fucking claus anymore... hahahahha...

well last nite we hang out at tasik putrajaya.... just chill out... ( owh yeah..?? chill out..?? what the fuck does that word mean to me..?? ) and having fun on the eve of christmas... we bring the sisha and bought some chicks ( hehehe ) to do some barbecueing ( ok it was chicken parts... okay..? ) and then just stared at the stars that wont came out that nite... you see... even the stars are avoiding us.... do you know what i mean..?? we longed to see the stars but the stars dont twinkle their lights upon us... even the clouds help the stars to hide.... you damn cloud... stop clouding my vision and my mind... off you go... show me that hiding star of mine... huuuuu...

and then we wait for the sun to rise... we anticipate it so much... we were expecting it to come out beyond the horizon of the lake... and again we were turned down... the day just lighten up without the help of the sun... or perhaps the sun were also hiding... what power do we have that made even the mighty sun afraid of seeing us..?? or we just a plain loser and everything looked down on us having the tought of no use to it... granting our wish is not the priority to them... we are minors in our own major league.... hahahahha... am i going crazy..?? perhaps that will catch up some attention.... whiners in disguise of contentment.... hahahaha... stop laughing at yourself or else you will die unhappy...

owh here's some more pics during the open house at lennie's and Maherian's Reunion

huhh.... life in the last few days are very hectic... hectic not in the sense that i'm busy doing something meaningful like studying or being stressed by something... but in the sense of having fun with my friends and soon to be friends... *wink *wink and enjoying the excitement that came in overly dosage... hahahah....

well to start things on... i begin by 'reviewing' the Malam Pesta Muda Mudi gig at No Black Tie last Saturday nite... as everybody know it clashed with Rock The World 4 but nonetheless it was way much better than RTW4.... this gig was organized by SCTS and consist of 4 band... SCTS, SWA, TIRAMISU and This Body Broken.... well this gig was said to be the last gig for SCTS with their drummer Mokhtar... but we'll talked about it later... the gig started with the opening show by This Body Broken as a warm up with three songs of theirs... then SWA took off the stage and rocked the crowd well enough to make you dance frantically but then again, the gig was a sitting one so nobody can mosh around... after swelling your ears with SWA sonic scape then came in TIRAMISU... this is my first encounter with this band from Singapore... i dont expect much at first.... when the singer took the mic wearing a mask and a shining mantle i began to suspect something... when the music started i ultimately converted into a fan automatically... their showmanship was incredible... seeing their show is like watching a musical one man theater with support musicians and with fun and exciting rock soundtracks... owhh cant wait for them this coming January.... must be there... lastly the closing show and most remembered one for that nite was from SCTS themself... as i said this was their last gig with their drummer Mokhtar and their show was filled with sad emotion about breaking up... and the aura effect everyone in the place... which was packed with friends and fans alike... what with fidi performing his superb solo on bass as a tribute to Mokhtar who was having a fever that nite... and the tear-jerking announcement made by Duan.... well SCTS performed a set with new songs... and a very good one too... it ends off with crowd giving praise and saying goodbye to Mokhtar... sad... so thats it about the gig... after that we went off to Sri Hartamas to 'minum minum' hehehe.... owh one more thing, i got to meet ain at the gig... hi ain...heheh

that nite when i came back from the outing, i was filled with ideas about writing it in this but to my dismay and disappointment the server was down and i was so frustrated... what more the following day, on Sunday the network was down for the whole day... what a fucked up day it was...

and tonite we all attend the AidilFitri celebration in campus... and it was so fun... not becoz of the event which was in fact just a plain boring one with Radhi of O the fucking AG as guess artist and all...( besides the joget performance and Ratno's band )... we just have fun totally on our own.... seeing the whole bunch of 'kebaya wearing aweks' and doing and overly extended photo session to a point where we were just below the level of rioting... hahhaha... and i got to pose with some chicks... good gracious me... ( pervert???? ) ( some photos here... )

well thats it... guess i miss some certain point... not gonna mention it here coz well it just not that important.... got to go to bed rite now coz i got an early morning class tomorrow at 8.. and the only class for that day... zzzzz

ahh... it's been a week since i update this blog... well it's not that lazy or what but it's becoz i just have nothing interesting to write about lately... well it is true since the purpose of me having a blogsite is just for writing my thoughts and things that are worth to note about...

so now i'm facing this lousy monitor screen of mine having no thoughts and just typing on blindingly with not much anticipation about whats coming out of my head.... it's just plain boring to have nothing to think about... well actually i'm taking some measures to ensure myself not to burden my brain to the extent that would cause my brain to heat up and misfunction.... i said misfunction coz my brain would start functioning asynchoronously with my action and/or words...

to begin with... well today i had two hours of class... a two different subject with an hour each and back to back... but both classes have no lecturers... i cant say that they were cancelled coz there's no notice or anything bout it... i dont know maybe it's becoz of the first week of the trimester or somekind... but they shouldn't do this.... ahh... it always like this.. when i'm in such a good mood of going to classes then there will be some other things that will distort my mood.... very disappointing coz i actually waited for an hour in front of the library building for the next class and there wasn't any... hahahahahhah funny coz i miss lunch after the friday prayer just to ensure that i'm not late to class...

so i spend the rest of the evening being hungry and in front of this again lousy monitor of mine surfing the net and hoping for someone on the YM to msg me... ( where in fact there's none ).... hahahaha... so you see... my life is actually a plain boring one... unless i do something to make it cheerful and bit more interesting then there's nothing that i can share proudly about my this so called life....

watched LOTR ROTK last thursday at GSC ioi mall... it's a breathtaking movie i would say though i'm not that fanatic or have so high level of anticipation towards that movie.... ( hehehe... hail to the matrix ) but in general the movie would put itself inline with other epic movies.... if not surpassing them.... what a big praise i gave to LOTR... hahaha... the battle scenes were really large scale and very thrilling.... well it should becoz it's the finale of such a long trilogy... to make the waiting worthwhile.... and what a relief... heheh...

it's one o'clock in the morning and i'm alone pretending to be a stone... moron... hahahaa... what to do..?? times like this will induce my hormone of hornism... ahahaha.. DONT!!!!

wuarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... hooiiiiiiiiiiii... urgh... for about three weeks i've been idle and away from writing something into this damn thing.. urgh felt like my thinking cap was blown away by the monsoon wind hehehe.. but anyhow i've just come back from my raya holidays... i couldnt update this blog during those holidays coz i simply dont have any access to internet... well we just moved into a new house and we dont have any phone line yet... well i can go to cc's if i wanna but i just simply too lazy... hehehe

well to sum things up here is a few paragraphs..... sort of...

basically my raya this year is a bit cool i think... with new house and all... and having relatives that i've not met for ages came visiting... and knowing my grown up cousins... which to my amazement grew up 'fine'... especially my female cousins heheheh...

about my emotions... i think i've reach a pretty stable state of it... not that i'm happy with it but learning that i've overcome certain turbulence and letting go certain feelings.. hell that is good... but i'm not quite sure about my mental state and my strength... hmpphhh...

well i'm planning about changing my layout.. again... hahaha... donno yet about the concept.... aaaa...