i'm sure this will stir up something.. but as
for me.. i do have the same thoughts as
LordPuaka concerning the chain letter... i know
everyone here do believe they are Muslims, but
is it..?? just by stating or "showing off" that
you are muslim then you can say you are
muslim..? hell not.. islam is more than that and
islam doesnt care whether you show it to
everybody or keep it only to yourself... it
doesnt matter at all.. what's matter is that you
do not lie to yourself... stay true to
yourself... i'm just reminding myself here
actually... no offense aightt...!!!

Here's what LordPuaka said.....

Quote - "LOL to you loosers, I lived my
childhood in questioning my faith. What is god
and my prophet put unto question. You and your
simple minded brain who just believe what their
parents believes....you beningted
simpleton....question first then profess your
faith loosers. Someone post this sh*ttie thing
bout profess in Allah by putting your name in
there. I could fin 300 believers and non-
believers...yada...yada..bla..bla... You don't
don't even question why Allah is the Universal
god damnit. You think Islam is like christianity
professes on blind faith. Just go up there and
say I believe in the trinity and Jesus as
God.... WTF...Its the same you go up there and
said I believe in Allah.. Your mouth just said
it but your mind can't think of the logic. All I
wanna say here is that, that hyprocritic chain
letter just irritates me, how stupid and
christianized the muslim youth today.!!!!" -end
of Quote

i'm not offensing other religions or believe.. i
do respect them.. i'm just focusing on muslim
youths of today.. aightt

owh momma... i miss home.. i miss fasting at home.. i miss breaking fast at home.. i miss all the kuih of kelantan.. i miss my little sister ( hehehhe ) aaaaa.... today, my second day of fasting here, had the worst "buka puasa" of all my life... just ate some free dates ( kurma ) and some cek mek( some sort of kelantanese kuih )... it's coz there's nothing that opened my appetite actually.... though i'm starving but all the foods seemed so lame... or was there any food here..?? we all went to the pasar ramadhan and found nothing there... one factor is that there were some non-fasting opportunist ( i mean chinese ) who took the advantage of the abundance of food there... well i'm not being racist here but please be respectful... we are not stopping you to eat but please consider us, the one who's fasting.... eeee dont know how to settle this one... well anyhow i got my hands on the food after terawih...

only 2 days in the fasting month but me already listening to lagu Dendang Perantau.. aahahahha... damn miss home so much... how those students abroad survive this i dont know... well... padan muka.. sapa soh gi stadi luar negara.... hehehheheheh.... i'm getting well already as expected... i know my recovery rate is fast... like naruto la kan.. aku kan naruto... hahahaha... already 7.00 am and it's time for streaming videos@yahoo.com... my latest craze that kept me away from my bed... well, got to enjoy this while the connection here is in it's excellent state... it's so good that u can watch a streaming video like you are watching the tv... even better coz u can choose what to screen... hehehe...

ok ciao luh...

aku demam... wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu... aku tanak ngaku aku demam.. tapi aku demam.. mamamamamam... kalo ada awek leh gak mengadu.. hhuhuhuh.. dah lama tak demam.. best gak rasa demam nih.. wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.... demam di bulan puasa.... wuuuuuuuuuu... dugaan..... wuuuuuuuuuuuuu...

wah... esok dah nak puasa... lepas sebulan buleh beraya.. wahhhhh... tapi aku..? still in mmu and have to endure one whole month of fasting here ( well maybe.. depends on my xm schedule actually )... owh gawd.. banyak dugaan ni kat sinih.. ngan amoi amoi nye pakai seksi.. aku dah la tak kuat iman.. bleh ke aku ni..? derang pon satu.. blajar la kaver kaver sikit.. pastu kalo kena rogol marah.. hehehe.. nak smayang terawih kat sinih rasa janggal lak.. first day dah miss dah.. ( hahaha kantoi... but me just being honest.. ) owh.. pastu plak tiket tiket sume dah abis.. nak naik kaptobang tadek duit.. isk... banyak dilemma ni.. kang nanti tak balik raya kang meraung sensorang kat sini la jawabnya..... ok la.. we'll take it step by step.. for now just concentrate on the fasting and finals.. lets calm.. tarik nafasssssss...... lepass.. ahhh..

eh.. just now i'm like having a burst of ideas about what to write.. but it just dissipated.. owh well.. hmm i'm out to kl three days in a row.. starting friday till sunday... on the friday i'm out all by myself.. taking the ERL to KL Sentral.. my first ride actually.. owh it's so cool you know... the train moves so fast that u can feel the acceleration.. took only 15 minutes for me to reach KL Sentral from Putrajaya.. awesome.. well actually.. i went there to meet up with my sister... she's going back to kb and wanted me to accompany her to Hentian Putra... so after sending her off on her 9 o'clock bus, i went back to KL Sentral and "lepak" with me and myself ( hahaha ) there for a couple hours.. what am i doing..? hmm.. well it's like my habits you know to just go out alone and see ppl around.. observe their "live and spontaneous stage drama of life" ... i enjoy it very much.. have been doing it since my school years... but now i very seldomly do it.. but anyhow this thing really soothes me... kind of mind therapy.. hahahaha...

then on saturday again i went out but with ami... thrilled by yesterday's ride, i seduced ami to ride the ERL.. hahaha and he too agreed with me that this thing is really awesome... cool yeah.. proud to be malaysians.. so we went out to run from boredom here in MMU but alas we got stuck with nothing to do in KL.. so we just hang around KLCC and got irritated by some "mat rempit" who have no manners at all.... hmmmmm.. how do their mind works i dont know.. maybe they are some kind of unique ppl.. hahaha....

and on sunday again i went out with payed smek and ami with payed's car.. well the actual plan is just to follow payed to petaling street coz he want to find some animals for his assignment... but we ended up in times square with smek, ami and me did some shopping and payed didn't find any interesting pet... argh.. i hate myself.. i just donno how to spend smartly.. hahah... ahh dont even care...

ahh i feel dizzy rite now.... actually i started writing this blog at 1.50 am just now but had to stop in the middle of it and sleep for a while coz suddenly my head felt so twisted... but then i woke up for "sahur" and still the headache didnt stop... so think i'll stop writing here... actually i'm thinking about writing sumthin on the "unique" topic but maybe on some other time lah..

SELAMAT BERPUASA

Dendang Perantau... (versi deepavali)

di hari raya hindu...
terkenang daku kepada letchumi..
kuilku indah jauh disana..
amma serta appaku....

di tepian Ganges..
sungaiku yang kuning macam teh ais..
nun disanalah tempat ku bertemu..
aku dan letchumi...

apakan daya..
masa tak akan kembali...
hancur musnahlah..
segalanyaaaaaaaaaaa...

impian yang murni...
kini menjadi kenang kenanganku...
hanya rangkaian kata dengan lagu...
dendang perantau...

hepi deepavali.. yeyeyye

define unique...?? dictionary describe it as having the property of distinctive and unequal to anything... and why is that i came up with this..?? it's sumthing that've been in my mind for some time already.... and i havent had the answer for it yet..
i just see it around.. see and observes.. try to make some conclusion.. but havent got one...

so this is my postulates... ppl nowdays.. especially young adults.. crave to be unique... i dont know why but this is what i see.. everyone try to develop their own uniqueness... why i say develop..?? coz yeap i see them trying so hard to develop it.. just for what they want to be unique i dont know.. if u dont agree wif me... dont blame me if i say that u are denying the fact.. even if u say that u arent developing it, then u are lying.. coz u still do it unnoticeably even to your own conscious mind... and even me maybe.. tried to be unique myself...

what i mean by unique..? it is about being different from anybody else.. trying to be outstanding.. so that people would notice you as you.. well literally you are who you are but ppl today tend to categorize ppl.... ironic isnt it.. yet it's true.. ppl like to pile up persons to some simple category... just look in the friendster today.. those postings about your personality according to birthday and even more unacceptable is that you are a tree.. what...?? what is that shit.. you are a tree..?? and those trees describe your personality..?? owh how not unique at all.. hahhaah ... silly thing... even more... ppl like to categorize u according to your behaviour... they'll call u as lame or "poyo" person when u do something that they dont do..
and what about bitch, asshole, dickheads, fuckers, son of a bitch, bastards.... all those are actually classes in human behaviour categorization... aaaaaaa.....

and then... what will u do..? try to be unique of coz.. doing what other ppl dont do... act differently... build up some good
skills that ppl dont have... and receive praise from it.. and ppl will recognize u as the sole person who know about it.. voila..
u are unique... its as simple as that... owh and for what..?? dont know.. some hypothesis includes to impress and to be recognized... to attract attention and to find mates... hahahah.. it's like buying second hand clothings... u are the sole owner
of it.. no one have the same shirt as u.. so u are unique... u dress differently from others.. while others comb their hair and
u dont... its bout doing something unconventional... your uniqueness is defined by your personality, actions and appearance..

psychologically speaking.. humans have a discreet desire to be recognize by ppl... and to be recognize they will try to associate themself to a certain group of ppl... but in today's situation.. this is common... it's typical.. so by being unique, u will be unique becoz u're not typical ( owh i dont know how to put it into proper words!).. and owh.. i dont know how to
conclude this coz i dont even have a clue what am i thinking.. all i know is that ppl want to be unique...

i'll add up some more later on... about this topic... universally every kid in this world wants to be unique... just like me..

unique ehhh..?? lol...

owh me got back my old yahoo id.. wahhhhahahahahah me feeling so glad.. ahhhhhhhhh.... at last me able to memorize me secret answer to me secret question... huhuhuhu what a troublesome it was having me yahoo id taken over.. and more troublesome to try to regain it.. uh uh uh anyhow me is so happy rite now..

owh damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...... my beloved yahoo id had been taken over ( wohohoho taken ) by some brat who dont have a normal life to lead... so they only live in the net without having the proper netiquette.. i just dont know what will they do with the id's they managed to take over... for what reason do they do it..? owh maybe they orgasm by doing it i dont know.. what a pervert minded people.. fuck you amateurs and hacker wannabes..

anyhow.. i forcibly have to make another yahoo id.. hmm my new one is xapikx ... hehehe (poyo)... so please add this new one... arghhh i'll miss my old one.. what a good id it is.. it served me well.. huhuhu..btw.. if any of u out there receive a msg through YM containing a link to a yahoo group called bitchin illegal.. PLEASE DONT click on the link... coz it will pop up a page that have a script to retrieve your password.. huuuuuuuuu... even though u receive it from a friends yahoo id... maybe that friend of yours had their id being taken already.. ( wuwuwuw taken.. i've been taken.... they will come at ya ) hohohoh...

huh.. fuck everything.. this system of the world seems to collapse... every ppl on this planet earth is happily doing everything they want.. ahh.. especially in the virtual world.. becoz everyone can be who they want to be... and given that they have the proper knowledge.. so they can happily do what ever they want not knowing that they will probably destroy a person's life...

shit all this thing.. what should i do..?? nothing.. i cant change the world.. who am i to do anything.. huh.. fuck me for being so powerless... damn damn damn..

aaaaaaa.... managed to come up with a new layout.. but donno for how long it will stay until i change it again.. hahahah.. it's like i'm keeping on learning this dreamweaver thing.. so much to explore... i've learn a new thing creating this new layout.. it's about layers in a website.. hahah.. learning it without no 'guru' is so hard... got to keep it slow...

well... maybe i'm a geek afterall..

is there anything left for me..??

when you think that you can hide the feeling, but actually you cant, it felt like everything tumbles upon you... i thought that i've managed to get it all over and let it go.. but today it's proved that i still cant.. i try to hide my feeling but maybe it still slipped out unnoticed... urgh.. please.. i dont want to feel like this... ever again.. i'll have to learn more... learn to totally let it go away... i hate myself for not sticking to my own decision... how easy for me to disobey my own will... how i melt when it's in front of me... it's something i cant calculate using my brain.. maybe the best solution is to shut every means of contact... either physically, mentally or technologically.. hmmm...

what am i doing by typing all these..?? fucked up..

hmmm... got some issues here...

first.. about last nite ( i mean 14/10 ).. hihihih what a good nite it was.. we had a lot of fun selling cactus and sumi and power puff girls' lollypop ( yum yum )... and also we had a lot of fun looking at the "aweks"... hihihi... in a blink of an eye suddenly mmu was crowded with hot chicks... arghhh.. made me so depressed.. what?? with all these and i'm still a single..?? urghh.. and further more those chicks came with their boyfriends.. or was it "tukun tiruan"..? or capybara..?? urgh.. how come they got those hot chicks..?? it's like..i'm r&b and i'm cool with it so hot chicks come come to me... arghh..!! do chicks dig out r&b dickheads??? huh.. anyhow... the nite still fun.. we had a lot of fun making fun out of those performers... hihihi.. and Yoga too... hak hak hak...
do i over used the word "fun" ? hehehe yeap i do and i will use it again.. it was fun fun fun fun and fun... what a good event... those who didnt come surely will regret it... haahaha

today ( 15/10 ) we all went to see the tale of 2 sisters.. but couldnt make it coz it was sold out.. so we decided to go for jeepers creepers 2... and the movie went out badly... if you want to feel like a fool go and see this one... i'm not quite sure whether this movie is a scary one or a humor one... but one thing for sure is that we had a good time laughing at the silliness of it.... the creature is so damn cool that it appears to be so uncool... so stupid on its own way.. huh.. fuck that movie...

what's more important nowdays.. impression or intelligence... well for me.. by looking at todays social situation.. we need ppl to recognize ourselves... so we need to impress ppl in order to do this... what i mean by recognize is that... if we want to succeed in anything that we do.. for instance to become a good musician... we need ppl or the audience to recognize us first.. and once we're recognize ppl will respect and give some attention to us... so in order to become recognized, we need to impress our audience first... and just how are we going to impress them..?? certainly by having the intelligence.. in this case the intelligence in music and performing arts... so basically.. to impress is to have some intelligence... but if we just have the intelligence but didnt show it we wouldnt impress ppl at all... well it's just my opinion... nothing matters actually...

p/s : owh one more thing.. boys need to impress ( or being poyo ) girls so that she will fall for himm.. urghh... shit

it sounds like sunday.... today i done nothing.. wake up at 2.. went to the GEMA 2003 audition and had some fun there by making fun of the bands that took part... hehee... then took a friend's car and went out to Uptown to catch a gig there... but managed to watch just one band becoz we arrive late... and then there's a drunk indian pub owner one floor below who threatens to call the police if the organiser didn't stop the gig... owh you fucking drunkard... just who do u think u are..? if u want to get drunk in some calm place just go to the zoo and get drunk with the elephants there... by the way... we're not having the gig in your fucking lousy pub which seems to have a dj who only knows tradisional indian music... owh come on i'm not racist here but please... we didnt mess with you so dont mess with us.. hmmm but anyhow... the gig had to stop becoz the organiser didnt want any issue...

after that we went to lepak at sri hartamas... usha some hot chicks and then went home...

that's all... boring sunday

owh blog... damn me... i was trying to design a new layout actually but i got stuck in the middle of it.. i need to learn more maybe... afterthat laziness start to dominate my body.. hahaha... so full of lazy virus... just how am i going to survive this lazy thing i dont know.. but sometimes there's some magic in me when i can discard it and have a full go on doing things.. it's when i'm really interested in doing it then i would do it intensely.... until i'm bored again.. hahahah..

i went out to sunway pyramid today.. actually just following smek buying materials for his art assignment... well i dont know a clue about his assignment anyhow... hmm but instead of just following i ended up buying new spectacles.. urgh and it's so damn expensive for just a pair of wire frames.. hmm.. well the optometrist said my eyesight is getting worse.. hhohohohhoh i'm going blind maybe.. i dont even care about it actually.. (though sometimes i feel uncomfortable with a pair of glass dangling on my nose... )

hik hik hik.. between a best friend and a girl friend.. which is better..?? it's a question even i cant answer it.. once i've got a best friend.. (well maybe she will read this blog but i dont care) in my mind i always afraid if she have someone special.. more than me of coz.. uh and then well.. she have actually.. hahaha.. but becoz of my status as just a best friend.. i'm in no rights to feel jealous or what so ever.. but i did ... i did feel it.. then again.. nothing can be done.. i just say that i have to support every single thing that she do... it's true.. so there it is.. i'm no competitor.. dont have even a single effort to fight for it.. why..? coz at a certain point i feel like i'm just purely bored with all this nuisance... this might be that single best effort for me.. leave it behind and go for other thing.. just put a dot to it and u are done.... i'm done...for everything in the past.. just let it be in the past.. lol....

bye...

hermm... today i went to a meeting.. the meeting was for kelantanese students in this mmu cyberjaya.. well actually there's a visionary person (hehehehe... vomit) who wants to unite orey kelate in here and do some activities together...
for our first activity its going to be a dinner with Dato Mustapha Muhammad at his residence... actually he who invite us.. he'll provide transportation given that we'll find as many kelantanese as possible... but just now there's only a few who attend the meeting... owh kamon ppl of kelantan.. just for how long will we give up the chance to build kelantan..?? hehhehe... PAS is nothing but just a crappy party who disguised themselves as ulama... yes there's some ulama in there but not everyone is.. by voting them wont give u the assurance to go to heaven... it sounds like christianity to me... hahahaha... no offense to those who's fanatic about PAS.. but come on.. think about it... just give the chance for your children to enjoy what their frens are enjoying outside kelantan... ( but not clubbing and arak mabuk wohohoho please )..
huh.. anyhow.. whoever interested in joining the dinner with Dato Pa please contact me okay..??

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saya berharap semuga dia kembali ke jalan yang benar...

= Di kala Maghrib =

di kala maghrib...
aku terasa seperti mahu menjadi kerengga...
kerana kerengga mempunyai pinggang yang super
ramping..
berwarna kemerahan serta mempunyai gigitan yang
agak sakit...
bila masuk kedalam mata akan mengeluarkan
sejenis asid...
owh amat la perit rasanya...

di kala maghrib...
aku terasa ingin menjadi wayar kabel..
wayar kabel ku berwarna hijau..
tetapi aku fcuk warna hijau..
kerana hijau lambang parti pas...
aku benci terhadap parti pas yang membantutkan
pembangunan negeri kelantan...

di kala maghrib...
hahaahahhahahahahhahahaahhahahahahahaha
aku gelak.....
hihihihihihihihiih...
aku mengilai....
terasa seperti aku ini seorang yang bosan
sangap...
owh dimanakah wanita cantik penghibur hati...

di kala maghrib...
marilah kita sembahyang..

sekian
terima kasih
-aku berpuisi sejenak-

woahh... ari ni aku belajar satu perkataan baru... asphyxiate --- verb... asphyxiating --- adjective... maksudnya ialah lemas atau kelemasan... hihihihi... perkataan ni aku jumpa dalam lagu muse time is running out... ( hahahah bodoh la aku nih.. benda cam nih pon nak cakap... woh woh woh... )

ehh ehh aku rasa blogger nih tak reliable lahh.. tak stabill.. cis ahh.. camne nih buat site sendiri la aku rasa.. madefaker sungguh ko

hrmm.. i want to clear up the issue concerning my post about the tudung girls... for those who feels offended with my post i want to say that i'm sorry... certainly i'm not pointing out that all tudung girls act like that ( well.. do they..??) what i'm saying is that just be honest and stay true to yourself.. dont act and fools ppl around.. for of coz ppl would judge you by your appearance... by having a tudung, ppl would expect u to behave properly... hmm.. like me.. ppl will judge me as some spoilt brat just by looking at my physical appearance... hahaha.. go to hell with their judgement... i know who i am... i'm wondering... why on earth would "she" act like that.. giving everything to "him" ?? is it becoz of the so called true love or "chenta sejati" and about proving their love to each other ( erkhhh vomitttt ) i say fuck cinta sejati... if you are so damn in love and cant wait to have sex so just get married and have all the sex you need.. oh camon ppl... am i islamic..?? by stating like this..?? well maybe i receive some good education at home.. hihihi.. but of coz i too love sex... sex have a lot of benefit on your body.. about balancing your hormones and alleviating the stress.... hahahaha... but do it in proper ways and LEGALLY... hehehehehe...

by now you might thinkk... how hypocrite am i.. if me being put in such kind of situation.. will i do the same thing.. well i dont even know my self.. but i'll try to have my self constrain.. this is the most important thing.. so you see... dont act to be good if you are not... just be openly... owh how i hate ppl like that...

you see... ppl in other countries strive to wear tudung... ever heard about one member of the turkish parliments being expelled just becoz she wear tudung..?? or even nearer in singapore.. about some kids there who were being banished from school just becoz of tudung..?? we here take everything just for granted.. never want to ponder about it.. so please.. take sometime anyhow to do some thinking...

i am not punishing the girl in that picture by stating that she is bad or anything... i hope that she's aware of her wrong doings... i hope this will be a lesson for everyone... yahhhhhh

owhhh today for the first time in about a year i try to be athletic a bit... i went out jogging... hahaha... seems like i've lost all of my stamina... damn... this happens when u turn to be a lazy bum... yeap i know i'm lazy.. i wont do things that i am not interested in... i dont like being forced to do something.. well maybe everyone's like that.. i'm just stating some typical things about ppl.. everyone is lazy.. hahahaha.... so for me.. just go by the flow... to be a typical person just do what every other ppl do... seems like working but of coz i'll look like someone with no principal... but go to hell with principal... your principal isn't always right... this is always true to me.... i used to have a lot of my own principal and opinion bout life around me but it aint always true... now i'm feeling like giving up everything... i used to trust in destiny deeply... but now i'm like asking what is destiny... there's only coincidence and for other things u'll have to work to get it.... huh...

hermm... i'm putting up some more flash but seems it dont get along.. argh.. so hard to design this....

hermm... what shud we expect from a girl wif tudung..?? a good personality... ?? rethink your view... coz everyone is the same... what differ is honesty to yourself... hahaha... kalo cam nih mmg kena stat prejudis la kat perempuan bertudung... yang laki tu pon.. ish muka sivik gila... tu la.. muka baik tapi perangai jahat... berpura pura.. damn you.... any provocative thoughts do email me to sangkropik@yahoo.com

hmm... as of today i just spend my time in front of my pc... just get out of the room to have some nasik... keh keh keh .. i'm going to be a geek if i keep on like this... i've been wondering actually... recently (perhaps a few days ago) a girl add me to her yahoo msger and ask me to be her friend.. she just intro her name and that's it.. just like that and become frens..?? i dont know what's happening to this world today.. how do ppl of today describe the term friends...?? coz for me.. friends is someone that u really know about.. about their looks and personality and met them physically.. if not they are just mere "kenalan"... i've seen ppl desperately want to have friends... i just dont know why.. maybe ppl feel lonely sometimes... like me... also feels lonely...sometimes.... though i have a lot of frens around (maybe la kan aku ada ramai member... mana tahu jugak) nampaknye nak kena cari awek lahh... tapi tade awek pon nak kat aku.. apsal hah..?? ( ayat marketing )

hmm... i've manage to put up some flash and some pictures... thanks to muna who'd told me some tricks... hehehe kool muna...

hahaha.. this is my latest design... but i think i might do something about the background image.. the image is not my own creation afterall.... but can somebody guess what is the small blurred image is..??

hahahah just add a chatterbox to the blog site... and change the layout... this is a sample template from the blogger site... quite simple actually... i think i'll try to design my own afterthis...

so today i went out to the so called berjaya times square.... huh what a majestic building... the architecture is so new yorkish... if i can describe it like that lah kan.. haaha.... but i really like the place... though there's no attraction yet coz a lot of space still haven't been filled out... give it a few month and it will beat that mid valley megamall... hehehe.... but we as malaysians... always crave for something new and so the place is very crowded... it's a plus for me coz i can usha usha the aweks there.. heheheh...

owh my blogsite layout is so lame... hahaha.. i just dont have the time yet to edit it... still thinking of a theme for it... but anyhow i'm doing this just becoz i wanna have a place to write in... so dont care much bout the layout or whatever theme... hehehe

hermm.. this is my first blog attempt... hihihih.. i've always wanted to have my own blogsite before but just dont have enough initiative yet... so maybe i hope this will be my starting point