hmmm... today is november 20, 2003 and in another 5 or 6 more days muslims around the world will celebrate the Aidilfitri...
today also i'm going back to my hometown in KB to my newly finished family house.. yeay... i wonder how it looks like... i hope i get my own bedroom... i dont want to share it with my big bro... kehkehekhe.... well maybe i'll have to... cant do anything bout it... owhhh how i miss my littlest sister... aaa... fly me backkk homee please....when i get back, i'll get my hand on every kelantanese cuisines... yeah.... and those kuihs... yeahhhh.... cant wait cant wait cant waitt.... ooooo balik kampuuungggg... oooo balik kampunggggggg.... hati girangggggggggg... yeah.....

but.... there's some downturn actually.... it will remind me about my sadness... and what cause it also in rite now... i wish i wont come across it... hehehe... i wont... i dont... cant afford anymore brain and heart damage... yeah... let's keep it kool aiite bebeh.... let's just have fun and be happy during this festive season... let's go and buy some expensive and loud firecrackers and blow those pain away... let's go hang out with my ordinary friends who will stop feeding my brain with intelligent things... my brain needs shit... yeah... some shit and some fun and some happiness... hiiihooo.....

today for my sahur we went out to putrajaya.... and then we went 'lepak' at what we call as 'jambatan tiang sebatang'...
if you notice, here in putrajaya there are two 'hanging bridge' that spans majestically across the lake of Putrajaya... one have two main poles and one have only a single main pole... and we went to the latter.... from the bridge we had a very great view over Putrajaya.... make me feel so proud of being a malaysian... we talk about PUtrajaya and we actually came out with a mutual understanding about setting up our lives in the future in Putrajaya... we talked about working and living
in Putrajaya... how we will raise our kids ( owh damn... i dont even have a wife-to-be ) in Putrajaya and will someday be proud to consider ourselves natives of Putrajaya... well... someday that will happen... maybe it's just a dream... but it's a dream that we could try to realize it... not so hard actually... just have to put some BIG effort in it... LOL.... and then one of my friends said that the main pole can be climbed coz there's somesort of service ladder in it... so we looked for it and found it... without any second thoughts we climbed up the ladder until we reach a part where the ladder actually went into the pole.... it was night time and the inner part of the pole was dark so we decided not to continue.... actually we are just about 1/4 up the pole and it already gives me shivers for being so high.... but still it gives me the euphoria.... hahaha.... my mind felt so relieved and empty.... really good feeling... well if anyone interested in climbing the pole do tell me... we will do it together.... hihihihi... this time we'll make it to the top... yehuuu....

9.49 am... we plan to get on the high roads after Asar prayer... but i'm not packing up yet... i'll do it after this maybe... i'm so excited about going home but there's another feeling that make me dont wanna.... though the former is stronger than the latter but still i felt unsure... arghhhh fuck me..... set aside those unwanted shitty feelings... it doesnt matter at all... yeyehhh... lets get up and pack... hiiihuuuuuuuuuuu

okay everybody, maybe i wont be updating my blog for awhile this time... so i'll wish you now....

"Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin to each and everyone of you out there who have been wasting your time to read my shit talkings.... may god bless you all and may the force be with you.... "

have a nice holiday everybody especially to MMU studentss

owh.. hmmm been a bit to long.... ignoring this thing.. well i'm into something lately... hahaah.. some friends of mine back in malacca got their hands on some .net domain and they start putting up some forums... we called the forums as MMU riot... a place to shout our dissatisfaction on about just anything in MMU .. well not just MMU maybe... hahaha.. in a way it is good... to express everything without being held back by anything or anyone... if you read those postings in the forums you might think MMU is the suckiest university in the world... i dont know..maybe it's true... hell yeah it is true... we are right... yeah yeah yeah...

hmmm... like always, i might see it in different ways... ever heard about action speaks louder than words..?? it means that if you just keep on complaining bout things and you did nothing to improve it, then it will still be like that.. words wont move things.... but force will.... dont just hope for other people to do it for you.. why dont we jump in and make the changes... hehehe.. sorry for sounding like a politician.. not that i will do something about it coz i dont even have the qualification to do nothing... i myself prefer to just speak and do nothing.... or just think and do nothing... in other word, i'm ignorant... but do i..?? it's fun to complain, to see others complain but it's not fun when you try to do it yourself.. to please others.. it's something more to impossible than possible... coz everyone is different...

one person against the whole army is definitely impossible to win... but collectively, we could achieve something... dont just use words as your swords but use actions as your weapons ( huiyo i'm rhyming ) hhihihih... dont take me seriously though.. coz i just can say things.. but cant realize it.. heheheh... a typical writer.... try to move ppl by words...

hhahaha.. yesterday i'm a total drunkard.. not that i drink, but i smoked too much sisha and made me felt so dizzy... in other word, high... hahaha... so is it ..? took me a couple of hours of good sleep to be sober again.... huhh.. i wont do it again.. dont like the feeling... i wonder what will happen if i smoke marijuana... hahaha.. i might vomit my stomach out maybe... damn... how do those addicts handle em... hmmm... for me i just cant afford to loose my sanity..... just like to be sane and sober...

hell yeah...

owhh.. it's sick... to read this article in Utusan today.. a father sexually abused and raped his own daughter.. aged only 14 years old.. until that poor little thing pregnant... the father who is a lorry driver received 58 years of imprisonment and 30 canes... owh i just hope that he'll receive more than that... just what was he thinking..?? oh bladihell... i just cant imagine how his brain works... where is his sanity... for god's sake that is your daughter.. and you raped her till she's pregnant.. then what is that baby's status..? grrrrrrrrr... i'm feeling like chopping his dick off and stuck it into his ass... and then i'll throw him into the sea full with sharks... what's wrong with todays society..?? where's all the values that we try to preserve... is it becoz the lack of religious knowledge... i dont think so.. even an atheist who's sane enough would think that this act is unforgiven... i'm talking about the value of a persons life.... it's better to die than receive such a horrible humiliation... for what its worth.. it worth nothing... just a short pleasure but meant to be doomed forever... owh... the collapse of human values.... coz well maybe.. we are all just a bunch of clever animals...

huuu...
today i felt the very very the happy hahahahah.. not becoz i achieve sumthing good or what.. but becoz Odei give me some interestingly good news.. hahahahaha.... i've never imagined that ppl ( i mean gurlsszzzz bluwhehkke ) would notice my existence... hahahah.. i never tot that this would happen... i wonder... what do i have.. hahaha... by stating this i openly declaring that i am truly a sampah... keh keh keh.. urghh... but just imagine.. who would be looking at sampah..?? urgh demit.. i'm not even worth your time to read my whinings... but.. still.. hahaha i'm happy... kekekekek...

i'm 21 but i still whines a lot.. like a crybaby... arghh... i dont care.. i like to whine... yeap i really do.. i like to complain bout things that i see and think as wrong... i dont whine just about everything... but still... hahhaah... i'm not matured enough...maybe... but what is matured actually... am i not matured..? just becoz the way i think and behave dont fit with the rest of the crowd.. am i not ..? what should matured ppl do..? how should matured ppl act..? is there a scheme about it..?? i dont think so... deep down inside there's still a child in everyone.. hahha. dont cover it.. just act like what u want... be honest to yourself for once... aaaaaaaaa

no conclusion here... but i'm happy

aaa... feeling a bit lazy to put up some new post.. though i'm bored as hell doing nothing... what to do..? is there a cure to boredom..?? even when you have a lot of work to do you will still feel bored and lazy... out of the boredom you shall come up with thoughts about just everything so that you can get off certain things... your mind would drool with unwanted mind juice but it's fun in a way or some... the juice might wash away your thought and emptied those meaningful thinking and flood your nerves with lazy viruses and at last you will feel sleepy... at a certain point after that you'll find yourself in a dreamworld filled with lots of fun things to do and to get rid of it... to get rid of it you have to wake up.. but nahh.. dont wake up in the middle of a good dream... a dream is like your escape pod... you can escape from this fucked up world of your reality and be anything you want in it..

ahh.. i like dreams..though every dream of mine lately have a disappointing ending... hahahaha... one dream that i've been having is that i got to know some cute aliens from space and there's a female one ( well though my real idea bout aliens is that they have genders but not in the likes of female or male... ) which was so cute... so pretty that i fell in love with her and to my amusement she fell in love with me.. hail to my dream.. wuhuuuu... i remember one date that we had.. we walked on water all the way to a certain island hand by hand together... haahahaha.. cool yeahh... but.. as i said before it ends sadly... my so called outer-space lover died becoz of CO2 in my breath when we tried to kiss each other... hhuhuhuhuhu.. owh my goddamn mind.. it ripped off the 'Taken' storyline and turn it into sumthing unusually romantic with a ridiculously tragic ending... owhh and it is true.. i felt so in love.. so mushy mushy... arghh.. when i woke up i smiled at myself thinking... what if it was true... even if just for a minute it was true.. owh gawd... in this real world i cant even have someone to love me but in my dreamworld... so super duper cool shit come out... i wonder... if there's others who dreams like me.. maybe there is.. of coz...

well talking bout dreams, it recalls me about some researches done about dreams... well they come up with a hypothesis that dreams are just jumbled random data in human brain thats been 'played' in a certain area of the brain called limbic, paralimbic and forebrain... when you sleep this specific area will try to join the datas together and your level of creativity will determine hows it going to be...i dont really understand how but somehow i think my dreams are purely original becoz it is so ridiculous...hahahah...or maybe ii'm a very creative person...bluwekkkk...!!!! hehehe... a bit of knowledge here.. though i dont know even a fraction of it.. well when you are in a state of total boredom like me you would probably do anything.. even reading about some 'useful info' like this.. but well, it would come handy sometimes... for instance when you are trying to impress a girl or guy.. hehehehe... you'll appear cool when you can come out about something so intellectual.. well to a certain people also lah kan... but do it properly to avoid being labelled as poyo... POYO... i hate POYO... not that i'm not POYO... well to my eyes POYO would be defined in a way that will please myself and to other people POYO will be defined to please themself... bothways we are all POYO... hahahahahaha.. shit you and shit me....ahhh...

i hate people...
i hate being people...
i hate being people's people....
i hate ....
end...

::Pantun Hari Raya::

Kelantan...
Make ikke cicoh budu
Jange lupo tamboh satar
Kelik rayo toksir laju
Nanti rayo dale sepita

Terengganu...
Makang ubi jamang jepong
Makang kepok cicah cuke
Bulang pose mung bengong
Bulang raye mung gile

Pahang...
Sepadan Pahang ada kasino
Nasi dagang ikan patin
Jange mu masam muko
Raya makan rendang sadin

Johor...
Cegitu cegini awak suke
Awak suke kite tak suke
Esok luse hari raye
Sama-sama bersuke rie

Melaka...
Hawau kau berak merate
Kaki bengkak ulau patok
Kalu balik naik kerete
Jangan pandu kalau ngantok

N. Sembilan...
Masak lomak cili api
Campo dongan daun turi
Hari rayo kolumpo sopi
Tinggal penyamun dongan pencuri (org kolumpo jgn kocik ati!!)

Selangor/K. Lumpur...
Wa cakap lu wa tak tau
Tapi wa tipu sama lu
Raya jangan buat tak tau
Angpau ada bagi gua dulu

Perak...
Gulei tempoyak ikan mayong
Deghoyan busok tebok tupei
Pandu hemat ingat kampong
Asal teman selamat sampei (udah leee)

Kedah...
Aloq Staq terketaq-ketaq
Lapaq perut makan pau
Macam mana tak ketaq
Kena paksa bagi angpau

Penang...
Nasi kandaq kedai mamak
Anak mami juai pesemboq
Lepaih raya usah dok triak
Kalu ceti mai ikut dapoq

Perlis...
Padang besaq kecik aja
Tempat siam lalu lalang
Hari raya kita berbelanja
Jangan sampai menambah utang

hehehehe..

hahahah.. this one really tickles... a concrete prove that sir Tun Dr. Mahathir is a real thinker... read on

Why Mahathir insist on using English for math and science. Because global uses the language as information's and / or technology language at this moment.How danger it is if we're trying to use in Bahasa, *hardware = barangkeras *software = baranglembut *joystick = batang gembira *plug and play = cucuk dan main *port = lubang * server = pelayan *client = pelanggan

Try translate this:
ENGLISH : That server gives a plug and play service to the clients using either hardware or software joystick.The joystick goes into the port of the client."
BAHASA : Pelayan itu memberi pelanggannya layanan cucuk dan main dengan menggunakan batang gembira jenis keras atau lembut.Batang gembira itu dimasukkan ke dalam lubang pelanggan...

hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahaha.....

ahhhhhh.... finally... the third version... hmmm... a little bit more satisfied... still lotsa things to learn... hihihi

huuuuuuuuuuuu..... hmmm.... fasting here gets a bit better.... today we went out to Putrajaya and to my surprises, there's a satay kajang haji samuri in Putrajaya... i reckon just a few ppl know about this.. there's a place at the Ministry of Agriculture...it is called Taman Warisan Pertanian... there's a foodcourt there.. and also some booth about local agro-based companies... the place was so cool... and there's a branch of Satay Kajang there... we got there a little late and it's raining.. so the place was like a bit crowded... lastly we got settled breaking fast very Melayu-ish style.. by 'duduk bersimpuh di bawah pondok' ( heheheh.. i dont know what is bersimpuh... keh keh keh... ) and we ate a lot of satay.. we went there in three cars.. so it's like hari raya u know.. sitting sitting and eating eating satay and chit chatting and laughing laughing.. keh keh keh ... i think everybody should try out this place.. it's nice... very cosy and homely... anyyyhow... i still miss home...

to be or not to be.. that is the question.. this is the famous words of Shakespeare.... and i do agree with him... unconsciously he stated that living is nothing but binary... no or yes, live or die, on or off, one or zero, pass or fail, everything in two's... everything in pairs... negative or positive... yeap life is analog... but this is too complicated... so ppl tend to live a binary life... it helps simplify life itself... so decision making will be much more simpler... the computation will be simple... but as in digital computer itself, the computation will consume much time... an then comes the anomaly.. when a certain things cannot be converted to binary... when between yes or no there's another choice.. it is called uncertainty... things that cannot be explained... when you feel that the given choice is not enough.. but still you have to make a choice... you cannot choose both becoz both are opposites of each other... coz at the end you'll get nothing...

owh my dear life... when will i figure out your plans on me.... will you give me a chance to peek at those blueprints... i just wanna know.. if i'm on the right track or not.. coz it seems to me that i'm losing it... argh... i know i'm to be blamed of everything... but ppl say there's fate and there's destiny... am i destined to mess up my life..?? am i the most messed up person in this whole damn world..?? owhh.... stop...

owh.. i'm thinking about changing my layout again.. hihihihi... rite now i'm toying with CSS.. donno what it is but would probably do some good.. hek hek hek... well i think i'll design it a bit more simpler...

hmm.. it's 9.30 a.m already and i'm not asleep yet..been awake since 5 pm yesterday.... if this keep on going like this i shall be a vampire pretty soon.. owh please i wanna sleep..please let me sleep.. hmmm... zzzzzzzzzzzZZZzZZZzzzzZzzZZ