and yet i change the shoutbox again... it's hard to find the substitute for dekap's but this i think will do... it's the original tag-board itself... it's much like dekap's but with less smileys... and less customizable... if i am willing to pay 20 dollar a year then this tag board will be much much better than dekap's... but heck... i crave for free things in life... hihihihi

so this is a variation of version 4... it's version 4.1 i would say... heheh.. i changed the shoutbox... i like dekap.com's very much but it makes the page super slow to load... hehehe... this new shoutbox is from activetopic.com and it's a simple one... it can be modified though but i'm too lazy to do that now... hehehehe

i got a story to tell... a story that inspired me during my early schooldays... well i guess you ppl have heard it... here it goes..

one snowy day ( yeah snow )... a father and a son were walking in the woods hunting for deers... suddenly the father got an idea and wants to convey his wisdom to his son... and so he said to his son " son, u see that tree..?? now i want u to walk in a straight line towards that tree..." so the son did what his father told him... and when he reached the tree and look back... he found that the trail he leave behind him on the snow was not in a perfect straight line... in fact it was crooked... then the father walked towards him and he made a perfect straight line... so in a wisely toned voice... the father said," well... see your trail there... it's crooked... that's becoz u look down and tries to arrange your step in a straight line... but u cant see your main goal ahead of you... that's why you cant manage to have a straight line... whereas me.. i look straight at the tree and walk to it... ignoring my steps... hence mine was a good straight line...".. and so.. the moral value that i got... during that time ( my early schooldays )... is that u should ignore what ever that lies between you and your goal... well at that time to be successful in your study... and that i do... yeap i do manage to be successful... but then when i grew a little bit and got a bit wise myself... i review that story... in a different way...

well... now... for me i think that the father was really wrong.. he's totally wrong... coz... the way his thinking will lead his son to be a selfish person... or worse... the son might not have a fun life... well it's true that you should achieve something in your life... but you're not supposed to go straight to it... take your time... plan your steps... enjoy every bit of the road you choose... have fun with it... most important is.. always look down... dont be so proud with yourself... well... it's what i'm doing... part of my life before is a waste... hahahah.. but i dont regret it.. i got wiser... thank god...

ahahaha.. sorry for that nuisance of mine... just felt like sharing a little bit of thoughts... nothing important actually... well... gotta sleep... zZzZzZzZzZzZzZ

excessive fun, entertainment overdose.... and does this define happiness..?? am i happy with my life... hehehe... yeah...happy... but am i satisfied with it.... maybe... well not really... i'm thinking... like there's no point if you have no one to share this so-called happiness with someone who are meaningful to you... well... it's just me all alone...

today... went to You Are The Tragic Loss gig at Aero Pub, Plaza Ampang City.... being fed with lots of fun and excitement... especially with the likes of SWA, Tiramisu, Muck and Plain Sunset... well SWA as usual.... played a very good set... then the band that i've been missing them since their last show at No Black Tie, Tiramisu.... giving of a show that will be remembered by all... this time the frontman had two costumes which he wore one under the other with his face painted white.... well certainly you might be thinking that this man must be 'poyo' or what but heck he's not.... he's so cool and you'll like him in a glance... well sounds like i'm exaggerating but i dont care... i like this band... hahahaah... about their music... just imagine this... the minute the guitar starts to sound people will start dancing around... hahaha... their songs are fun and catchy...

the last band for the night was Plain Sunset from Singapore... and it's said that the gig was their last show before they split up... it's kind of true coz it's the last gig that they played outside Singapore and they will be having their final show in Singapore this 7th Feb if I'm not mistaken... well it's the first time I see them on stage though.... they are a punk rock band with emotional lyrics and their musics really caught my attention.... how pity that i would never see them again... well maybe... I like to quote what they said... quote" well in the newspaper we read that Malaysia and Singapore dont get along so well... but today we see both Malaysians and Singaporeans are having fun together" end quote... it's quite an interesting notation there... coz it's true.... music unify us... hahahaha... those old bastards up there dont know that the youth of today dont even bother about the issues or what... just give and take... it's just simple matters actually... hahaha...

hmmm... like always... after the gig we went to Sri Hartamas... this time there's a party at Amber and the Dj are spinning some rock tracks and there's no cover charge.... so after having our late dinner we went there to check it out...
and it's really fun...( again the word fun came out... hahaha )... i danced so hard that my ankles ache... ehehehe... man i went clubbing... cant believe it myself.... hahhahaha... but i dont consider it clubbing actually coz it's not the kind of clubbing musics that they spin... and what more it's free... i'm still clean.... yeay....

well back to the sharing thingy.... hahhaha... this thoughts have been circulating in my brain in a while already... mostly after a day full of fun like today.... i just dont know why... makes me down each time i think about it.... perhaps its a good way to chill out and to calm down.... but really i do think it's useless if you dont share your elation... i dont know... will i know..?? i know nothing... damn.... owh... like a friend of mine once said... dont be so contemplative... ignorance is a bliss...
and i just dont know how to ignore....

uhh... my body.... i'm.... tired... gotta.... sleep.... ZzZzZzZzZzZZZzzzzzZzZzZzZz

owh my rage towards pretentious superficial girls aren't over yet... but go to hell.... please dont mess with my life... or my friends' life... huhuhuhu....

last nite we all went to UiTM shah alam to attend some sort of Battle Of the Band with some twists.... the event was held in corresponding to the ArchiFest 2004 and was organised by the archie students.... it was a blast i would say.... owh by the way... SWA was the guest band for that nite... the show was really an eye opener for me... it shows me that battle of the band could be very entertaining when you do it unconventionally... so their idea is like this... make every batch ( if in itm it's known as part.. so part 1 is for the first semester and part 8 is the final semester.... sort of like that i think ) send a band and a group of student doing performing art or sketch... assign each batch with a colour and theme... ( i.e depression, anger
etc... ) and anticipate the outcome.... given that everyone is very very sporting and supportive the outcomes were somewhat very interesting and arty farty... well despite the quality was a bit less though... but perhaps it's caused by lack of practice and preparation coz archie students are very very busy.... but i really like their idea.... *wink wink* might try to apply it here in MMU....

further more... from what i can see.... these students are very friendly and very close together... they are all look so joyfull
and aren't afraid of making a fool out of themself.... so not like most of MMU students... always kept to themselves and control their selves trying to look cool and matured... fuck it... what more... the event was totally unharmed by the USRAH or what so ever and the performers are given their full freedom to do anything they want on stage... even dressed up like black metal-ish style.... and the lecturers also are very sporting... they even escorted us out after that so that we are not being held by the guards at the main entrance... with all these things i think i might change my view about ipta.... they are way much cooler than MMU.... especially in the students affairs and activities areas.... uh i donno what to do with MMU...

events aside, let's talk about the chicks there.... huh... somewhat better than MMU also... hahhaha... just imagine this, upon entering the main entrance, we already spotted three beauties.... hahahaha... not that we are perverts or what but it was so noticeable... what more... these ladies are friendly... and i managed to take a picture with one... hehehehehe good for me....

after that we went 'lepak' at section nine at a place called nite circles... have a good time chattering with my old mates from school... all and all the nite was very fun... like i said to Fizah that night... if i'm still in Malacca rite now i might not be able to have some quality and fun filled night like this one... it's true my dear Fizah... cannot deny it... heheheh... well... effortlessly... if in Malacca.... i have to work hard to have fun... you know what i mean rite..??
p/s : i'm somewhat envy you... hihihihi... and you know why...

ok that's all... got a fucking early morning class tomorrow.... got to sleep... zzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzZZZzZzz

pretentious superficial motherfuckers...!!! huhuh... is it fun to be playing with people's feeling..?? you think you can do anything just for the sake of having "some" fun..?? owh shit.. it's a typical excuse for "pretty" woman who think that she can "select" anyone she wants... huh... just by listening to the stories of my friends makes me wanna puke... and just how are you going to judge "somebody" that suits you..?? being judgemental from your point of view is like a perfect way to have a "great" life.. owh.. and what more... taking advantage of somebody whose being blinded by your "charm" is another thing... it's like doping a person and ask him to drink his own semen... huhuuhuh... what the fuck man... open up your eyes... see whats going on... dont just put some hope on something that is not worth your heart... PRETTY GIRLS ARE EVIL!!!!!!

THE STROKES

"What Ever Happened?"

I want to be forgotten,
and I don't want to be reminded.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet.

I wanna be beside her.
She wanna be admired.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet.

Oh dear, is it really all true?
Did they offend us and they want it to sound new?
Top ten ideas for countdown shows...
Whose culture is this and does anybody know?
I wait and tell myself "life ain't chess,"
But no one comes in and yes, you're alone...

You don't miss me, I know.

Oh Tennessee, what did you write?
I come together in the middle of the night.
Oh that's an ending that I can't write, 'cause
I've got you to let me down.

I want to be forgotten,
and I don't want to be reminded.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet.

I want to be beside her.
She wanna be admired.
You say "please don't make this harder."
No, I won't yet...

it's me again... why people likes to be philosophic... just why people want to come up with toughtful words..?? just to show wisdom..?? arghh.... later....

hi... first of all... HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU FUCKERS OUT THERE hehehe... so it's first of january again... the so called begining point of another 365 ( well this year is 366 ) days of your life... well that's if you are lucky enough to endure it for another year... and certainly we've all succeed last year... and during the past 365 days we've gone through everything... i dont know what each of you have experienced but i know what i have...

last year was a shift for me... it's from a state where i am at the lowest of my life... of my thoughts and of my doings... and gradually risen to a better place... just becoz i learn how to let go certain things in my life.... it's a revelation... it's trully painful in the process but nonetheless it was worthwhile i reckon.... when you think your decision it too wrong but you still choose it... and when it turned out to be a wise choice... it's breathtaking... it's mind boggling at first and a relief at the end... well this year truely taught me about a major aspect of life... it's not maturity that i obtained or sought after... but the wisdom that lies under it... hell yeah... though my last year's resolution was not achieved but i'm satisfied coz it turned better than what i wish for in the resolution... had i reached what i resolute... then i wont be at a state where i am today on the first day of 2004.... yeah...

so last nite... on the eve of new year 2004... we all went out to chill out at Tasik Putra...trying to avoid the hassles of kl... the same place i mentioned when we got out on christmas eve... we have another fun filled ( or perhaps wacky freaky ) 'celebration' of new year...this time we even brought a viewcam to record everyone's resolution for this year.... we even have a 'goreng pisang' fight... if you know what i mean.... hahaha... we'll see if everyone can reach their goals... after the countdown ( which we all missed becoz everyone was distracted by the 'interview' session ) we all went to A&W pj.. ( "pj drive-in is a good idea for a band's name" recite mr.blek... hehehhe ) and had our first meal of the year 2004 there... though the place was very very very crowded ( and lacking of kawaii girls ) we still have some fun taking pictures and everything... hohoho... when we all got back in mmu... we all agreed that tonite is the best new year celebration ever....

and now i'm looking forward about going through this year... i feel revived.... yeah...