Low Life

i fuckin' hate rempits... why on earth do they even exist... i think rempits are aliens from another planet on a far far away galaxy... they came thru a space portal called modified motorcycles... just hear the sound of it, out of this world i say! no real human can stand such a tremendous sound... or perhaps the sound is somekind of an encoded message... the way they communicate, spread their agenda to each other about taking over the world...

well true, rempits are slowly taking over the world, we can see them everywhere, preaching about their sub-culture... oh man! i fucking hate this... well, i am not dissing them as individuals... for i know individuality is totally different with collective behaviour... like the wild animals, rempit culture will only worked when in packs, a group of people... when their alone, they'll be normal... its a mindset...

i dare say, all mat rempits are from the low part of middle class people... they, or/and their parents dont make sufficient money... and each of this to-be-rempits started with their parents motorcycles... the question is, why do they act the way they are? the feeling of inferiority drives them... they want to be acknowledged, and being on a bike made them superior, at least they feel they are... when actually there's nothing superior when you ride a motorcyle... you'll definitely get killed in an accident... whether you crash on your own, someone hit you, or you hit someone, either way you'll be the worst one to suffer...

i'm not saying rempits are low lives... but they way they think, say, and act makes them deserves the title... i wont hate people who dont mess with my life, but rempits always ruins my day... so thats why i'm expressing my hate to them openly here... hahahahah...

but wait, rempits arent the only low lives here...

Lovers Come and Lovers Go

ok... im going back home later this evening... had a great week and a half... lots of things happenend... yeay!! subang is a very nice place, minus the traffic jams... hahahah...

cant wait to be back here in another ten days or so... maybe by that time the EP will be finished, or partly finished, coz we dont decide about the mastering part yet...

oh, i'm continuing my holiday with my family next... we are planning to go to Cameron Highlands... wheee this holiday is so fun, eventhough sometimes its kinda boring when theres nothing to do...

ermm... not much to say here... ahh its almost 6 month... and still doing great!! ahhh!!! im happy like a rich feudal lord surrounded by lots of concubine... hahahah... well not exactly like that, i'm referring to the feeling, not the situation... its metaphorically speaking... happy and happy!

ok... i think i'll stop here... ciao!

Simplex

hey there, well its been about a week or so... and yes i am here in Sunway...

for the past 5 days we've been struggling to record April's first EP...
its kinda tiring but it was all worthwhile...
managed to record 5 songs... with such limited time due to the tight budget... gotta cramp in some more i think for the mixing and mastering... dammit...
but what made me more thankful was the effort/ideas/intensity that Mok showed during the recording session... he looked so enthusiastic, working with us... he put in a lot of ideas on how to improve our songs... and he even give ratno some singing lessons... i seriously think we paid less for the service we got... maybe i should treat Mok to a dinner or something...

well, recording a song is a very painful thing to do... especially when you dont do your homework and arent prepared... and sometimes things can go wrong and you started to feel the pressure, and tensions can build up... lucky for us things go smoothly and accordingly, though we have some minor flaws...

and right now, i think i have a crisp view on where we are heading, musically... this recording defines April's music... before this, we are like, asking ourselves, what are we going to do with this band... hahaha... so now, at least we think we are on the right path...

personally i think this recording session was great! coz we all worked together very well, and the condition was really relaxing... probably because of the holiday, and to me it was really really fun, given that i could spend hours and hours with my Huda... hahahaha...

well guys, the EP will be out soon, but not soon enough... and we wont be printing it a lot... so make sure you guys keep track... hahahahahah... some capitalist... i myself, am very excited... cant wait to hear the end result... i really hope we can go far... hahahahah again...

on another note, Huda wants me to say that she looked really cute in each and every pics of hers... well, i gotta admit it... hahahah... why? because I love her and i am cute too... cute people thinks alike... yeah!!

i am so in love right now... i'm wrapped in her love... and it warms my heart... hahaha... i am happy... so happy... i love you HudaYusoff!!! hahahahaha...

Nothing... really!

well a quick update... i'm going to KL, err Subang Jaya for about a week or so... i got something to settle...

first of all, April is going into the studio for recording... its gonna be an ep or demo, will decide later... and hope everything will go smoothly...

second of all, i need to go to mmu to settle something.. once and for all... hahahah

third of all, i'm dead bored here, need to breathe and put in some space... hahaha...

last and the most important of all is, i'm going to see my dear Huda... hahahaha... miss her so much!!! yeay!!

ok thats all... bye!

Juliana Evans

today we talked about Kelantan people... those Kelantanese...
i am proud being a Kelantanese but i have to point out some bad traits that we have... yeah...

you know, we are too proud of ourselves, in fact we even put stickers of Kelantan's flag and/or logos on our car and motorcyles, mainly for those numbers that do not start with the letter 'D'.. and the amazing part is that we, of all the states in Malaysia, are the only one, that do this kind of thing... and i myself think, this is so uncool...

what more, we are very arrogant/cocky... for example, Kelantanese like to move/socialize in their group/peers only... and they always have some sort of prejudice towards other people who dont speak like them... always we see groups of Kelantanese hang out together in universities/colleges... simply because they dont trust others and wont mix with others...

we are mafias in some ways... we only trust and accept only those who are the same blood as we are... we cannot accept advise or oppinion from others... we are always right even it is indeed wrong... we are short tempered, so beware, dont cross path or we will smack you on the face...

we always feel that we are superior from other people in every way... where in fact, we are way behind other states in every way...

but this is not the actual reflection of the whole Kelantan people... overall we are friendly and well mannered... hahahaha... its just that i think this whole patriotism towards the states is not a good thing to do... we are all Malaysians and we should be proud of it... dont isolate ourselves from the rest of Malaysia...

and i feel a bit dizzy right now... i am a bad person... no one should love me... i dont deserve any love... bye!

Nora Danish

hahaha... no i wont be talking about her... i'm just putting a title, eventhough it has nothing to do with my writings... hahahah

i dont like the idea of going to gig just to check out bands... and to just listen to the music and judge em... gig is to have fun, to dance around... if you want to relax and enjoy the music, i think you better be in the comfort of your home and listen to the cd, or any recorded materials...
and so comes in the importance of recording your music... because the only way people can actually hear you and your music is through recording... well at least a proper recording... hmm...

and i also hate the idea about making music just to impress other people... oh yes i know it is important, so that people will recognize you... but to do it to the extent of where you become a pretentious one is, i think, absurd... you force yourself to like the music which is the 'in' thing and then you try to make it your sound... oh! it is fake!

and i also hate the idea of collecting a whole variety of gadgets just to show off... and also showing off that you are a portable user's manual to each and every music related gadgets out there...

on another note..

i'm having this weird feeling about letting go... letting go everything i have right now... letting go all the commitments, all the achievements i've made so far, which is not even a handful actually, and try to get along with my current situation... because i'm realizing something, for the sake of my future, i should try making a turn, a sharp one....

i believe in what i'm doing now, but lots of other factors contribute in my basic fundemental of my future... and if i want to go on with the current me, i'm afraid it will be very painful... and, i also know, sacrifice is very painful, but the pain wont last and it would totally go away when the purpose of the sacrifice is achieved...

i am left with only two choices, let go or hold on... to be or not to be... i'm trying to gain my strength... i think... i think this 2 month will decide... if not... i wont be able to have a future.... period...

Wars

it might be interesting to have wars these days... so that people can suffer and stop being merry all the time... its not a healthy thing to be in such peace... chaos can make human stronger... coz it is surviving that allow human to persevere...

peace is boring... and chaos is fun.. becoz everything is in motion... constantly living on the edge... the thrill... the adrenaline... rushing through out your vein... pushing you constantly... just to stay alive... interesting!

erm.. well, you might be thinking... am i a violence freak? not! hahaha... i'm just plain boring right now and im just being playful...

and right now i simply dont have anything to write about... my life is just plain boring right now... there's no big ideas to preach about... hahaha...

is it wrong if i say i am bored with kelantan... with my own home... is it? i'm looking for fun in other places, in another soul... i just simply dont enjoy it being here... well for the time being...

one more week, and then i get to see her! oh i just cant wait!! hahaha

Stars

the holiday.. it ruins things... things that i dont want to lose... things that i dont even dare imagine it to end/lose/defunct.... i hate holiday... its killing me...

i love holiday... i love doing nothing during the holiday... i love being at home, naked in my room... and looking at the blank ceiling... damn! my ceiling is so boring... maybe i should put something on it... a poster maybe, or some pictures... so that when i lie on my bed i can look at those things...

my life is pathetic... and i am not happy... i dont think i've achieve enough... i'm incompetent without the sense to fight... i'm a quitter... because i know if i struggle i wont succeed anyway... so it is better for me to give up and walk away...

good things... it only come to me once, and in a form of somekind of a miracle... because it will come only when i least expecting it, or not expecting it at all, what so ever... and often, those good things that came to me are something that i never wished for... and things that i wish wont turn into something solid... it will never... not in a million years... fuck! yeay yeay i know there a people who arent as lucky as i am, who live without clothes, without food... yeay i've heard it... but i'm just stating my opinion here, and its about my own life, my own feelings, not yours... and who are you to tell me what i'm feeling... what i'm thinking... everything here happens only in my mind... and so you dont have even the slightest idea of whats going on...

i hate being put in a situation where i have to chose... i'd rather be a gambler than being a decision maker whom decision will be always be wrong, no matter what the decision was... my free will is somewhat restricted, kind of stuck in between...

i was a man of principal, but right now i am a man with no goal... nothing to hold on to... i used to have lots and lots of ideas of how i am going to get through my life, but right now i think all of those ideas wont work in this reality...

in fact, all my rumblings above are worthless... nothing extra ordinary, non avant garde... i am trying so hard to sound eccentric when i am actually a flat carpet on the floor... and yes! what you are thinking about me is true, your assumption about me is true! Correct! 100%! Bravo to you for being a good judgemental people of our society...

i'm taking this too seriously... its not serious at the first place... its just a matter of trying my luck... with no strings attached.. but now, i'm being too serious... why? cause i'm gaining confidence and i'm realizing the honesty... and so, i think i'll lower my level of seriousness back to where it should be... prioritize it back... it shouldnt be on the top of the list... its wrong... ethically speaking...

i like this... yeah... when i'm in somekind of bad feeling, i tend to think a lot, talk a lot and thus, writes a lot.. i miss it.. i miss this burst of ideas... well, when people is in the peace state, they'll go numb and weak... i think i should always be a miserable lad... it works better on me that way... *sighhhhhhhhh*