Nora Danish

hahaha... no i wont be talking about her... i'm just putting a title, eventhough it has nothing to do with my writings... hahahah

i dont like the idea of going to gig just to check out bands... and to just listen to the music and judge em... gig is to have fun, to dance around... if you want to relax and enjoy the music, i think you better be in the comfort of your home and listen to the cd, or any recorded materials...
and so comes in the importance of recording your music... because the only way people can actually hear you and your music is through recording... well at least a proper recording... hmm...

and i also hate the idea about making music just to impress other people... oh yes i know it is important, so that people will recognize you... but to do it to the extent of where you become a pretentious one is, i think, absurd... you force yourself to like the music which is the 'in' thing and then you try to make it your sound... oh! it is fake!

and i also hate the idea of collecting a whole variety of gadgets just to show off... and also showing off that you are a portable user's manual to each and every music related gadgets out there...

on another note..

i'm having this weird feeling about letting go... letting go everything i have right now... letting go all the commitments, all the achievements i've made so far, which is not even a handful actually, and try to get along with my current situation... because i'm realizing something, for the sake of my future, i should try making a turn, a sharp one....

i believe in what i'm doing now, but lots of other factors contribute in my basic fundemental of my future... and if i want to go on with the current me, i'm afraid it will be very painful... and, i also know, sacrifice is very painful, but the pain wont last and it would totally go away when the purpose of the sacrifice is achieved...

i am left with only two choices, let go or hold on... to be or not to be... i'm trying to gain my strength... i think... i think this 2 month will decide... if not... i wont be able to have a future.... period...