Butter-not-at-all-worth-y

well, i'm half way thru writing about the governments' plan to apply the harm reduction technique in order to control the drug addiction problem when somethings change my mood... so i decided to write something thats totally different... hahaha...

i am not at all excited about going to penang for the beautiful junk festival... i dont know why but i just dont have the mood... maybe something to do with everything... my supp, my 'kemiskinan' right now, and everything... i think i wont be going... i'm sorry but i think i have to prioritize...

im not trying to cause problems, or trying to find a point, but the feeling is not right... when i am not excited about something then it is no use for me to go on... even if its going to break someone's heart, or lots of hearts... well its not my intention to do that but i just feel that i have nothing important to do there, to be there...

but then again, i am going... coz its for the sake of my beloved one, and thats the only reason i'm going... if its not for her then i wont even consider to go... yeah i sounded hypocrite and cliche but what the hell i dont care... i dont give a damn about DDA, or whatever great bands there, seriously i dont give a damn... blah blah blah...the important thing is i'm going just so that i can spend time with her... why? coz i love her so much... hell yeah!