Bleeder.

i am wondering... do hearts have tounge? coz i've been monologuize since i can remember things... and people enunciate using tounge... i know everything i feel about myself, is somehow felt by others too... because we are just humans and thats what humans do... to speak to oneself is one thing... and to even have a discussion with yourself is like schizophrenic...

today, after a long hiatus, i again had the discussion with myself... am puzzled... i know its a sickness... and the thought of i've recovered makes me happy... but now it came back and knocked my muted innerself...

the road, i've gone thru it... and i've leave it far behind, lost into this thick jungle...where i think i can bury myself and have a nice solitude... but no, isolation is a phobia for me... i cant be alone... i need her here with me... in this future....

freaks... and uniqueness... conquers the eye... buzzing sound of lightning never silence the rainy night sky in this dry land of hearts.... fuck me coz i am not feeling okay right now and i dont know why... as if i am in 2003... the world is round yet the humans have hands and legs... they walk in straight line but curvy footsteps can be traced back to their aparments... i am blabbing without a point...

do time really move forward? come to think of it... the definition of time is not accurate... if we are expecting the end of the world then the time is not expanding, it actually decreasing and we got little left to spend... think, at first we have a whole bunch of time, and we've almost used it all up... and right now we are at the very last drop of time... so time is actually lessening... so we shouldnt count time in increasing manner... we should count it backward... like from 10 to 0... like from 20 million years to 1 second before the final moment... bye!