Bad Luck Day!! Yeah!!

i've gotta write these!! i am gonna write all about it!! i've got it all figured out in my head right now! fuck!! i am not okay!

lots of things happened not according to my plan.. i know! dont say those holy proverb! i know! i know! i'm human and i cant predict whats gonna happen! but fuck! i am not okay!

i should see the signs! lots and lots and lots! but i couldnt do nothing! i dont have the ability to prevent things! fuck! i am not okay!

failed alteration, great ideas but sucky execution, everything is the sign... but i am lost! right now i am not okay! i know i shouldnt feel this but i am feeling it and i wont deny it coz i am sorry... fuck! i am not okay!

this feeling! please take me! let me feel what you want me to feel! and i am falling for it!

haih!! haih!! haih!!! i cant write it at all! i just cant force my fingers to type the word! that word! i wont type it.. stop forcing me! fuck and shit and fucking shit i am not okay and okay is not in me!

hahahah fuck! lala fuck!