Rediscovering

i dont think i can write something meaningful ( or did i ever write one? ) today coz my straight mind is clouded with this happy feeling... hahaha... my world of today is like living in a biosfera on the surface of the moon... you can jump higher than on earth... and gravity wont pull you too hard if you're falling down and you can always bounce back easily... okay actually i cannot interpret that metaphor myself... hahaha... its not at all connected...

well, its gonna be another year... another year of being nothing... and nothingness itself has a distinct shape... this 2004, it did teach me a lot of things... things which i think i'll never understand but i managed at last, to find their meanings...

of being lonely, of being a self-proclaimed loser, of being rejected, of being accepted, of being in love, of rediscovering romance, of being a spoilt university student, of not struggling where i should, of struggling where i shouldnt, of being remorseful of everything...

hahaha... everything, sums up, and become one true entity, happiness... and i wont dare to devise a test to know how long will this happiness last... coz i dont know if i can take it...

i want to welcome you 2005, but i dont have the anticipation, i am sorry, hope you'll bring me more happiness...