Great Scott!!

notice the title above..?? hahaha for the first time i try to give a title to my post in this blog of mine... ahaha kind of experimenting with the vast possibility of my fucked up and rotting creativity... well.. its a cliche and i dont fucking care...!!!

yes... today is monday... and by this friday i'll be in my hometown.. am looking forward to it... but not looking to far ahead... coz after the raya break we'll gonna have final exams... ahahah... damn... my raya spirit is ruined by that...

hmm... so raya comes again... and i'm not feeling all eager for raya... the eagerness tends to fade away year after year... maybe its becoz that i'm 22 and wont be getting 'duit raya' anymore... or perhaps i cant jump around the house yard waving my 'bunga api' anymore... (but well i did it, still, last year.. ahahah) or well maybe... its just me who is feeling like that... coz for the past few rayas, theres a lot of drama happened, concerning me, concerning my family, and concerning me and my friends... ahahaha... i dont like to recollect what've happened... i know, the past will stay, (ehehe can i borrow your words?) but still, the memory of it... was just too painful... ahahahah

i want to have a fun raya again... i want to sincerely smile, without having to fake it... i want to sincerely apologize, whole heartedly... ahahaha.. i hope this raya will bring all that... the contentment in me that i've been longing for...

but for now, lets sleep... zZzZzZzzzZzZzZ~!!!