Break The Iceberg!!!!

ahh... so the ice have been broken... all the things that we should discuss had been talked about... and all the things thats been in my mind all this while had already been asked and answered.. but then came that question...

am i ready or not? sadly i do have to be honest... and i am honest... well i know i can just lie but it wont make any sense when what i'm doing is for the sake of me... and i know you need to know it... so all this time, its not you, but me who need some more time... i need to prepare, or think about it... i know i am certain about what i've said, but i'm just not ready... fuck me!!!!

what am i doing?? this is the best thing that ever happened to me but i'm just not ready?? i thought i've always wanted this to happen but i'm not ready?? am i kidding myself?? no.. i know i'm always ready... get set and go...

hahahaha... we are serious when we laugh... or we have to laugh to sound serious... right?? is it the way or is it just plain silly..?? mann... i'm so sorry...

now i'm beginning to feel awkward... but i feel like i cant stop writing... oh.. btw... i found a box of Durex at the parking lot just now... three condoms in a box.. wahahah... (sorry iklan Durex jap... tapi, tolong! practice safe sex! hehehe)

ok la... think i'll stop here... i'm afraid if i dont stop, this entry will turn into an open letter... hhahaha... right now, i'm going to crack open my head... yeah!! taa!!