i am working on my new layout.. maybe its time for some changes.. by the way.. i think i am changing.. morphing into something else.. i'm guessing, my life will change.. a major one.. but it depends totally on me... and perhaps.. a mutual change.. me and the other half..

i just cant be on my own.. i just cant make up things in my mind anymore.. i cant just conclude things by myself.. i have to take into consideration bout other things that can help me come to a real conclusion, a reality based conclusion... an assumption with some good physical value... not an abstract fictional delusion that i made up in my imagination...

ppl said, to gain something you have to give something... in fact, to get something precious you have to sacrifice something worthwhile... and for the time i've sacrifice waiting for something to happen, something big and never happened to me before, i think it was very much indeed worthwhile... all of my efforts, to make that something happen before was just a mere acts of desperation... and it was not at all worth it.. for the right thing to happen, you need luck...

man, am i..?

is it my time...? have i spotted my own supernova..?? is it blooming or is it just a false alarm..? i should really think this is it.. just take it or leave it.. ahahahaha... well... i should try my luck.. always..