THE TREE

a very bright light shone on my eyelids and made them glow in orange... i was awaken by that ray of light and slowly i opened my eyes... but all i could see was whiteness with some blurry images.. my eyes felt sore due to my long sleep... i waited for my iris to adjust to the light... and gradually the view got clearer...

i could see that i was standing on a grass field... stretched as far as my eyes can see... and at the far end i saw the horizon... it was beautiful... as if the ground and the sky met and becomes a great picture... and the contrast color of green and blue soothes my itchy eyes...

oh the sky... the wide blue sky above me... i tilted my head and i saw it... it was mild blue... very comforting... i stared at it and tried to feel its glory... the pride of it being so high up there...

i ran my eyes across the sky searching for anything when suddenly my eyes felt burned as they focused on the great sun... owh how little i am compared to the mighty sun... i never dare to stare straight at it... the sun was shining brightly and i could feel the heat was burning me... even the grass below me bow to the powers of the sun...

i realized that i had to get out of this burning heat... again i searched the sky for a bunch of white clouds... where i think i might find the comfort of being under its shade... under its tender loving shadows... but to my disappointment there is none... as if all the clouds were avoiding me...

soon i realized, the sky was not my turf... i had to look back down to earth... where my feet were.. where i could firmly stands... i looked across the field... nothing... by this time i was running frantically, hoping to brush off the heat... owh i felt very hopeless...

somehow i managed to recollect my sanity and with all the luck that i have suddenly from nowhere i saw that tree... a bit to far away but anyhow i got to get there... i ran towards it without looking back... i was half joyed when i saw there's a river lies between me and the tree...

from across the river i could see that the tree was not at all in its best health... the leaves are brownish and dying... the bark are peeling off... i felt pity for it... i knew that i could somehow help it.. and at the same time i knew i too needed its help...

but this river prohibited me from getting close to the tree... i'm thinking of swimming across it... the water was shallow... but the current was frightening... it flows with full force... i didnt know why... i'm guessing that there's a heavy downpour up stream... and that didnt help me at all...

how am i going to swim across it... im afraid i will drown for sure... and it is not at all worth it... or should i wait for the current to calm down... ? but will it slow down..?? and if it going to happen... when will it be..?? will i be able to wait that long under this burning heat of the sun..??

or perhaps i should look back up and hope for the clouds... i oughta be optimistic and open to all choices... but... the clouds wont stay... it will drift away with the gushing wind... and further more.. the clouds are way high up in the sky and i can never reach out...

this tree... it needs help... and right now i am the only one here... and maybe i am the only one who can help it...

so well right now... here i am... with all this questioning and never answering... i dwells into the realm of total confusion... and the sun up there is laughing at me... bathing me with the never ending heat... and i guess... i guess i'll die in confusion... ?????

-apik-
16062004