owh so it was done... everything was done accordingly... the Audiowarfare had officially ended just now... and the outcome..? well we got second place... something that honestly we... and i myself personally.. dont even dare to hope and dream of winning... we never expected it... true... we do think we suck big time... or me.. i suck big time... i cant hear my guitar... and i got lost and out of tempo... but still the judge was 'kind' enuff to give us second place... why..? i dont know.. maybe i am too cute to handle... heheheh.... so they cant stand my cuteness and had to give us a chance... if we got the first place it would be too obvious.. so they just put us at the second place and still feel good about it... well you see... my cuteness do serve me well... hahahahahahahahha ( perasan nye )

but seriously... other bands are way much better than us... ( well not for all bands... there are actually some bands who suck big time too... i mean really... big time... ahahahah... ) but anyhow.. i dont care... the things had past and everyone seemed to be quite happy with it... so i think i should be happy...

should be happy aight..? but i feel nothing... i tried to pretend to be happy.. in front of others.. but actually... for me... i dont feel anything..yes i did feel surprised.. but it didnt make me feel happy bout it... i dont rejoice at all...

the things is... well... that happy feeling is just nothing... if you dont share it with someone important... well at least at first i do think that i have that someone important... but thats just me who feels that way... its not/never a two way feeling... hmmm...

an irony.. that is... with all this happy moments around me but still i'm feeling down... you can see it just by looking at this entry... so much to say aight..?? hmmm... hmmm.. i dont know what to feel... or think or do or whatever i should... arghh... i hate this kind of crisis... the crisis of what to feel.. or how to feel..

but i know one thing... right now... just go get some sleep and let see what tomorrow have in store for me... hope for something good... never hope for something better or best...

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