so now its May once again.... and i cant help from thinking what i always do during this time of the year... time really fly so fast that i cant even keep up with it... and i cant even keep up with my own age... or should i think that my age isnt suitable for me right now..?? for my own act and behaviour... for my under develop mind and thoughts..?

ok.. its not about that really... i can always ignore my age... ( maybe up until the age of 33....) what really concerns me rite now is how things always have some kind of time restriction... like... you have a certain time to finish a certain mission... and always.. like i said before.. the due date chokes me... and in real world... this kind of time restriction will effect your whole life... i mean your entire life... your dreams and your ambitions... these things have some certain time frame... if you cant fulfill it in the time given... then you are doomed... ahahaha.... the systems of the world... to some extent... very ridiculous... but still its the world that we live in.. the only world.. and we all love it.. the only world but yet we love it thru and thru...hmmm

its May and i still cant come with a firm decision yet... i should forget about it... ignore the routine... its not that important anymore... i know that.. forget forget forget forget forget forget forget forget forget.... huh!!!!!!!!! ignore ignore ignore ignore ignore ignore... arghh!!!!!

ok stop... lets look forward.. as always...