owh funny... something i did today relates to my previous post...

it's about something that you dont expect... when you least expected something... it'll happen... somehow this can be true... and should be made into a nice and proper physical theory... never try to predict something coz the more you predict it and the more you can get the nearest approximation, well, the more you cannot get the actual result... so dont predict anything, dont expect the outcome... dont hope for things to happen... just ignore it and things will come stumbling on you... this, is something beyond comprehension even for the most advanced brain belonged to human...

so today i 'discover' a nice viewing spot to view the whole city of KL... actually everyone knows about this but this is my first encounter so i think i should mention it... this where i said that something i did today relates to my previous post... the place is called Bukit Permai... hahaha by now i can see you all laughing at me for mentioning this coz basically everyone knows about this place... but anyhow... the view there was very nice... the whole KL is painted onto the black canvas... i can see the glimmering lights of KLCC blended together with the visible stars of the night sky... how beautiful... so this is why people wants to be at the top... to feel the pleasure of the pretty scenery... but then again... it's just temporary... soon you'll have to get back down to the bottom... and for that brief moment at the top you feel relief... so what's the point of climbing up there if it's just for a short time where you can enjoy the breathtaking view..?? this is what i see in life.... the goal, the success in life is also described as a pinnacle... and the pinnacle is always just a sharp pointed thing... a dot.. it's not a linear line.. where you can always be moving constantly... or perhaps you should feel some gradient but the ideal thing about line is you will never reached the dot... the end... thats what i think the most ideal life... never put something into goals... coz once you reached it, you have to let it go and tick it off the list...

owh just shut your brain my dear apik coz your ideas are all shits... its not a good thing afterall... people will never accept such idea... a life must be driven by ambition and goals... just keep it to yourself... heck... i will never understand... i will never understand even my own existence... whats the point of living if at last you'll die and evaporate forever... owh i should get back to the divine teachings... but perhaps religion is just a mere restriction so that you wont go off thinking about why you exist... and stop questioning it coz you will never find the answer... oh my...
is this the cursed Satan that is teaching me into thinking this infidelity arguments..?? no no... i am not defying GOd... but i'm trying to put some arguments.... i hate this... i hate my own thoughts...

i'm really twisted... i dont know why i challenged my own thinking... why should i seek the answers of the unknown... i dont know... coz the vast universe.... is a hugely wasted space... if there are no other beings that share it with us... for the whole universe there's only us... living on a tiny rock called earth... does it make sense to you..?? and why religions just cater the questions on earth...??? not for the whole freaking universe....??? or perhaps... some how human will be able to make use of it, make use of the vast space that was bestowed upon us... but when will it happen...?? in another 1000 years...? will i still be alive when the time come..? or if i die, will i be able to see it from somewhere... outside the universe...??? owh crap... i'm going far off limit... should stop here... all this thinking is a waste of energy.... i hate my thoughts... sorry.... somebody should come to me and give me a nice blow on the head that serves as a reality check...

well i have some simpler things in life that i cant understand... the question of friendship... well... i think i will do a brainstorm about it later on... for now i'm exhausted already.... and i need to bang my head onto the nearest wall....

ciao....

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