i do think... i am not suitable for the thing that i've been doing now... but nevertheless i have to get it thru... i have to finish it off once and for all... in order to shut others mouth and to fulfill my own hope of curiousity...

i see the lights... thru all of its glimmer... and i wonder.. if ever.. a light without such glimmer would exist... then it is perhaps a representation of my own state of mind... a light that wont shine... becoz no matter how bright the light is... if it wont shine then it dont have any use or meaning to exist... hmmm

what kind of person i will be..?? people around me are taking some solid form but me... still liquid and without any shape or form... i am eager... i have no interest at all about the present me... but i really cant wait to see the future me... how i wish i can skip my current me... but i cant... and i expect that if i am like this now, then perhaps my future me wont differ much...

where am i heading..??

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