hmm... i'm predicting a very troubled time ahead of me.... and i hate my unability to avoid it... or to change it... or perhaps to go thru it without much hesitation... now i'm really afraid... afraid of losing time... but even if you turn your back, still the arrow of time pointed ahead... it wont point the other way around...

if i really believes in luck and fate, so then i would say bad luck is still with me, following me closely and ready to snap out all of my lucky chances... bad luck is my biggest fan... ok, that, i can accept... but what are the chances that i can change this..?? my approximation, even how many times i calculate it, is still zero.... why'd i say approximation..?? coz i still dont lose hope... i still think that i can do something... i'm not saying that i am confident, but i know we should never be certain on anything... the more we think we got it right, the more chances that it is wrong... the uncertainty principle states that... and if the principle is wrong then the quantum mechanics is wrong and the application of it should never have worked...

to be honest... i dont have any hope, but my thinking helps me to pretend that i have some hopes... anyhow... it is enuff for me... to pretend... it still holds for me... a fake hope is still a hope in a way or another...