sometimes...

when you ponders about things that happens around you... you might end up in awe... for you can never guess what's in store for you in the future... always you think that things happened for a reason but which is which would be pretty impossible to know... and so you can just sit there and wish for the best.... or so it seems...

there are times when you think there's nothing can be done to help you get out of the things that made you fall into the deep dark hole of misery but when you suddenly realize that the hole has a brighter ending you just not ready to adapt to it... for you have already set yourself to bear the misery and get along with it... and not in any circumstances that you prepare for the ultimate opposite... coz you just simply accept everything that already happened...

hence you trembles when something totally unpredictable happen and you are confused with what to be done... correctly and beneficial to you... but gradually you'll come up with a super perfect solution to it and depends on how much you want to take the risk, the time taken will maybe effect your final outcome...

well perhaps you think everything is co-incidents... and so you can provide the best excuse for your unreadiness... but truely what happened before influenced the future happenings... the timeline wont always be straight and sometimes when it reaches the turning point, it bends... no matter how much you try to straighten it up it wont be back on the same track anymore... totally freaky... how time wont cooperate with you... for the price of none.... you get the time for free but you can never get redemption from the time you've wasted... irony invades our life in every way...

for more... you never ask things to be the way it is... things just come to you rolling when you least expected it... owh how perfect and simple life is isnt it... damn those dreams... life is much more complicated than your nerve system... heck... one way to make it simple is to be ignorant... ignore everything until everything got twisted and you twist your head to get over with life... and explore the realm of afterlife... go beyond life... if you hate life so much....

hahaha.... i'm of the limit this time... stop...