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dear,
i am missing you so much right now... its like here i am online, alone in this big empty computer lab, with the airconds full blast... and you're idle, out having fun in a certain gig... damn i miss you.. i want to be there too, with you, cuddling you, hugging you, making jokes, smile, laugh with you or at you, (hehehe) while listening and chilling to the great musics... damn.. i miss that so much...

its the feeling that i've felt before, when we went to singapore for the second show without you... there i am alone in those 'cool' crowds, in the ubertastic HOME club, and pretty much sleepy, and longing for your care, for your tender hands to caress me, while im sleeping on your lap... its the same feeling... i am missing you so much, but not to death cos if im dead then all of this wont matter... hahaha...

Dorky...

wwuuhuuuu... dammit i think i've forgot that i do have a blog... its like ages when i last wrote something in here...

hahaha... i am such a dork... and she likes me for that... not that type of dorks, but the kind that can make her laugh and not being all romantic and mushy all the time... i am far from romantic...
yeah... this thing is getting better and better... im still learning everyday... learning to make her happy... and the best reward for me is her sweet smile... wheeee jiwang gel!

put that aside, well i think im such a bad friend... maybe not bad... its just that i dont spend that much time ( perhaps no time at all ) with my old friends... and this few days kinda made me miss them all... i miss all those stupid chats and insults... hahaha... they said that i've abondoned them for new friends... hahaha yeah! thats funny...

yeah, people change... thats the one thing that everybody seems to deny... 'be yourself!' people say... fuck it... you have to adapt... 'stay the way you are!' they cried... hell no! if you dont change you can never survive the ever changing world... hahaha... dork!

i'm going back for my much needed holiday... its been a very hectic 2 month... and i am all exhausted...

and will be missing her for sure... dammit... i wish i had a private helicopter... or my very own puddle jumper... hehehe if you dont know what it is you can go shove a carrot up your arse... hahahaha...

yeah... i know my blog has becoming something so meaningless, something so pointles and boring and lame and shit... but i dont care... and dont worry... i will try to write more later... its like i'm back with this blog trend... hehehe

i love you Huda Yusoff! I am that black night sky and you are the stars that give the shines and glimmers to it... you are my star... my stars!!!