Poppy

there's something i miss the most, actually, that is, the feeling of being discontented, with your life, with your achievements, with your views on the mechanics of the world... i've stop thinking about why water is liquid, about why lights are made up of particles that have wave properties, of why the goose can fly but the smaller birds like quails cannot, of why the curvature of space effect time, about why people have to lie to each other in order to get what they dont want, about why humans dont evolve a bit after 10,000 years....

well there're plenty of questions need to be answered, and all of 'em have only one answer, that is 42, according to "The Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy"...

i'm not sure why 42, perhaps 'coz life starts at 40, and you need 2 years to realize that you're already 40 something... hahahaha... not funny...

i miss contemplating life, the purpose, the destiny, the final outcome... i miss that... i used to wonder what and if and how, but now i just dont think too much about it, i've learned that life isnt as big as you think,or want it to be... life for humans means small and simple things, like love and relationship... and eventhough i still cant believe that we are the only conscious being on this whole wide empty space we called universe, i managed not to feel lonely anymore...

come to think of it, is it really that big? i mean, the universe, is it that big? why made it so big but just fill it with only one tiny planet that can contain life? or perhaps the universe was never there at the first place... but then what are we looking at each night? the stars and all?

the idea is that, what we are looking at is somewhat just mere illusions... coz the truth is, outside the radius of earth's gravitation, no physical theory can be confirmed to be working like it should be on the surface of the earth... nobody has actually go to the far end of the universe and tested those Newtonian theory nor Relativity nor Quantum Theory... and so, if and only if all these theories cannot be the governing rules on how the universe work then we can assume that the electromagnetic waves(including light), (which is the only thing we used to analyze the universe, using those major theories) wont act similarly like we observed it on earth... and it is safe to say that the prediction about the size of the universe, which is until now scientist predict it to be somewhere in billions of lightyears across, is totally wrong....

hahahah what a crap! we should deal with something smaller, and simpler... like, if you want to think big, you have to think from the basic things, that build up the big thing...

yeah, i do have some twisted mind, but im not keen to share it with everyone... people will call me idiot, but being idiot can give you the ability of thinking outside normality....

and all this, wont matter... coz when you've found love, your mind will be sedated, trust me on that... for i have the love of Huda Yusoff... and i am so grateful of that...