hmmm...

actually... i'm in the mood of writing... but unfortunately i dont know what to write... guess i just write down things about my life lately...

hmm well... lately i've been doing those normal things students do... register subjects, going to classes and all... well maybe i'm beginning to get serious with my study... oh my... after four years..?? and only after four years then you started to get serious..??? what the fuck is that..?? huh.. such a time waster... hahahah.. but.. well.. it is true.. it's like my self-esteem is a bit better than before... well a few weeks ago, someone reminds me about how i used to be years ago... how i am such a full person, confident with my self.. and i never need motivation... i am the motivator myself... but that was then, not now...

a lot of things happened and my self-confidence was thrown away bit by bit... and what more with the usual self-condemning, the wrong mindset of trying to be cool by staying below the radar and all... ( but no, i'm not trying to be 'poyo' right now), and the constant failure that i've faced, in all aspect of my life.. well it all summed up on me and the result is me today, some jerk who dont have even a fracture of confidence and self esteem... hahaha... laugh at me...

well maybe, maybe right now i'm uplifted... it is like a breathe of fresh air again... hahaha... well maybe i wont be the same person i used to be, but i am really happy if i can get as close as who i used to be... and all i need is constant motivation...

well... well... ahh.. i have to stop before i kill myself... i'm bored to death actually... hahaha... those rumblings up there is meaningless... so dont digest it... yeah!!

we gonna die like this you know, miserable and all... hahahaha a nice quote from TBS...

oh i cant keep track of my days anymore... there's a funny thing just happened to me.. i thought that i still have another week of holiday so i came back to KL to do some stuff here for a while when i just realized that it was actually the last week of holiday already... shit... so i was forced to end my holiday a week early.. i still have some things to do back in my hometown, then well i have to forgo it all... hahaha.. it was like i was somewhere else and i lost my sense of time... i know that the new sem started on 20th of September but i just know the date without knowing when is exactly the date referred to... ahahahaha...

actually i came back early becoz my so called band(hahahahah poyo) had a recording session at the School of Audio Engineering.. we've been planning to do this for a long time already but only managed to find the time during the semester break.. we decided to record just one song becoz we only get a one night stand with the 'bitches' in the studio.. hahahaha... but i still think the process was a bit like rushing... but in the end we were satisfied with the outcome... anyhow it was our first experience... and it was an eye opener... hahaha...

the hardship that we get thru... it teached us to appreciate those records outhere no matter how suck it is but still the process to get it recorded was very very tiring....

well thanks a million to our mister sound engineer, Mr Pojam for doing this for us... we are really sorry if we suck during the session... hahahahh... and thanks to mutipah and the gang for coming and cheered us up.... hahaha... ahhhh

for pictures of us during the recording session, please visit my fotopage...

thank you....